Mommy heartache

Oh, the joys of motherhood....especially when they make you hurt inside. This has been a rough day for this mommy. I HATE seeing my kids hurt from lifes unfairness. I just want to snap my fingers and make it all go away, but, I can't. And, like today, sometimes you just need to sit and cry with them. I think most of the time I just try and change the subject so they don't dwell on it, or try to convince them that it really can't be THAT bad, but ya know, sometimes it is just OK to let them know that we hurt just like they do and that's OK too. I am finding that having boys makes this emotional thing a little harder for me, because they don't always want to "share" things with me...God designed them to hold it all in, unlike us girls, who just wail and let it all out! But, I still know that they are hurting and I want to make it better.

I want to make sure that everything is rosy for them all the time...lots of friends, lots of fun activity etc., and I really need to remember that I am not doing them any favors really if I make their lives that way...because LIFE isn't always rosy and it is my job to prepare them for the things they will face when they leave my nest. But, I can't help the mother bear that comes out in me when someone hurts one of them...I want to protect them and keep them safe from the hurt.

The one thing that comforts me is knowing that God will ALWAYS be there for them, no matter what. That is my JOB...to make sure that they leave my nest knowing that life and people WILL let them down (it's a fact), but that God will always be there to pick them up, love them and comfort them. It is hard to convince a 3rd grader of that, but I know he will learn eventually. And, today, that is especially important to me....knowing that he will comfort me when I am hurting for my boy.

Wow. This mothering thing is TOUGH, and I feel wimpy today!